I'm so depressed and disappointed in myself.
I always told myself that I wouldn't put myself in any situation like this, and yet here I am.
I feel so used and tossed aside, I refuse to let someone drag me on any more while I follow blindly and just wait until they find someone prettier or more convenient to screw, if they haven't already. I'm just so lost and confused, because this was all unexpected. Everything came to a grinding halt and I'm just not sure what to make of it. I keep telling myself to just move on and forget it all happened, but this whole thing has has such a huge impact on my life, a huge part in my life, and now it's just gone. I just wish that some sort of contact would be made, I don't know what I would do, I hope I wouldn't pretend to be happy and act as though nothing was wrong, I want to tell him that he's made me feel like complete shit, but I just don't know if I could.


Thank you unnamed person, you taught me a great lesson, stick to my guns and don't let anyone get me to stray away from my morals and what I believe in.
Oh yeah, and go fuck yourself.